“Now it came to pass in those days, when Moses was grown, that he went out to his brethren and looked at their burdens. And he saw an Egyptian beating a Hebrew, one of his brethren. So he looked this way and that way, and when he saw no one, he killed the Egyptian and hid him in the sand.” Exodus 2:11-12
I remember as a child trying to do things to “help” my parents. Quite often the results were less than helpful. One time I actually broke the glass in a fish tank sending water pouring onto floor and Mom and Dad scrambling to collect the flopping fish and drop them into other tanks before they all died.
When we don’t know what we’re doing we can make a big mess.
For years Moses had lived in the palace of the Pharaoh, far from the realities of what it was like for the majority of the Hebrew people suffering as salves. Then one day he leaves the palace and he sees the conditions under which the people are working. (Remember the goal of the Egyptian king was quite literally to work the people to death.) It must have been shocking for Moses to see people he knew to be his people treated that way. And when the shock wore off It would be understandable if it was replaced by anger. Then he saw an Egyptian beating a Hebrew slave and his anger turned to cold calculating rage.
Moses decided then and there that he would help the Hebrew people. Looking first one direction and then the other, to make sure there would be no witnesses, he killed that Egyptian and then buried his body in the sand.
Friends, when we’re not properly connected to God, when our minds are filled with the wisdom of the world, we’re not very capable of discerning whether or not what we’re doing is actually helping God or not.
Moses was not helping. What he’d done was far from helpful, it was, in fact, disastrous. Moses ended up having to run for his life and would spend the next chapter of it in exile in the land of Midian.
But nothing, not even our worst mistakes, can thwart the sovereignty of God. God used Moses exile to bring him blessings and experiences that would better prepare him for the work he would call him to do.
Many times we’re tempted to look at where we are and the things we’ve done and think that all of it somehow disqualifies us to serve God’s purpose. But here’s the thing, nothing we can do will ever qualify us to serve God and, if we’re willing to stop doing our own thing, and start following God’s instructions, our mistakes will never disqualify us.
We need to spend much time in prayer seeking God’s will. We need to spend much time in his word learning his ways. We need a direct connection with God and we need a heart willing to do as he directs. Will you pray that God will accomplish all this in us?